Option & Decision

These past 6 months, my life was all about organization works and academic life. Arranging exchange sharing session, making proposal for this and that, managing event for eco-based teaching program for junior high school students, collecting forms for exchange participant, creating environment laboratory report & journal every once a week, unstoppable academic test, all about those kind of things. I rarely have bed-time or even time to watch my favorite movie. I’ve made the decision. I did those works as good as possible, though I’m not satisfied enough with some of works I did. But I did it as good as I could. Am I happy with those routines? Will I continue to walk on this path? That’s what I’m exploring. Throughout my experience these past 6 months, I’ve been asking myself everyday. Is this what I want to do? If it’s not, then what I want to do?

Academic life is not even an option, it’s a must for me. I choose my major as I want, my parents gave their support, I will do my best to get great score. I like what I’m learning, I enjoy the environment, I’ll try my best to graduate with great score.

Then what about other activities? Did I find it enjoyable? I did learn a lot, a lot. Is it depressive? Umm, not really. Did it take my time? Yes. It just I want to explore something else out of me, I still don’t believe that this is what I really like to do.

Then it comes to my last task of the year, curating 30 festival movies. As I said earlier, I love to watch movies. God give me answer, he gives me 30 short movies to watch. Then little scream appears, I want holiday. But, laziness is a so-long friend for me. I keep kicking its butt over and over again, and I chose this way. I’ll make it.

NEXT YEAR? First 6 months, I’ll focus on my practical work and academic things, and of course trying to be umm so called fresh me, I can’t say pretty or gorgeous, I just simply want to be healthier and fresher than this last 6 months. I think I’ve made up my mind, I will say NO to some new offers, and continue what I’ve started. I think, that’s it. I know my limit, that’s it.

LAW OF ATTRACTION

Have you ever heard that ” like attracts like ” ? if you did, then you must know about law of attraction.  Realize it or not, I bet most of you have ever experienced this. Like once I have ever wanted to have something badly, but I don’t have any idea how to make it real, but it seems that my mind did observation unconsciously about my goal, then finally it takes me there, simply there. Though maybe it’s not as good as you imagined, but still the feeling of achieving is great. 

YOU ATTRACTED IT. YOU’RE GIVEN