February 2012
14 posts
Whenever I think, I should think the opposite
Whenever I think I’m right, I am wrong. Whenever I think I am feeling something, I am not. Whenever I think something is going to happen, it is not. Surprise surprise.
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Lately, I feel like I never say something right. Words coming from my mouth, they’re either unimportant or ineffable. I feel like it’s better to be alone. Saying something dumb makes me feel dumber. It’s just lately, I can’t control my mind. Things I did recently mostly are out of control. They’re mostly undesired. I gotta straighten my mind. I gotta keep quiet. Stay...
Why am I so zonk? Why do I pretend to question...
Why men marry bitches and why woman like me watch...
I wish I were a bitch.
Just recently, friend of mine just passed away. Tears fall for sure. Good old days pop up. But one thing for sure, she reminds me of life. About how I should live my life. How I should do what I love, love people I love, be good to people, be happy, learn as many things as possible, get closer to God, be thankful. I want to die like her. She died for things she loved the most. I want to die like...
And my heart started to pound like it used to. Jeez. That happy-crappy feeling when you see what you want to see and feel what you want to feel. Too naive to hide the feeling, but lord oh I can’t help it. I can’t help it. Few words that can leave you lot of things to be interpreted.
Open-ended
This neither right nor wrong. This is just matter of time. Nothing of this is fully wrong or right, if I have to defend myself. There is a time, when you can’t be alone. When you need company. And when that feeling strikes, I crashed. Ah, too naive for me to speak about loneliness. When there is a chance to blow it all, for god sake, don’t take it all away. Don’t. There’s...
January 2012
2 posts
December 2011
12 posts
LAW OF ATTRACTION
Have you ever heard that ” like attracts like ” ? if you did, then you must know about law of attraction. Realize it or not, I bet most of you have ever experienced this. Like once I have ever wanted to have something badly, but I don’t have any idea how to make it real, but it seems that my mind did observation unconsciously about my goal, then finally it takes me there,...
The joy of doing NOTHING
Waking up feeling like a hobo. More passion pit and more local natives.
Bob Marley. Bob Marley. More Bob Marley.
TV Remote. TV Remote.
Erykah Badu. More Erykah Badu.
Little bit The Strokes to remind me of young days. More The Strokes to relieve me of the fear of getting older.
Chocolate. Pocky. Kinder Bueno. Mochi chocolate almond. Dried Mango. Chocolate fondant. More and more for sweet...
YOU KNOW WHAT YOU’RE FEELIN, YET DENIAL KEEPS COMIN AND YOU DON’T KNOW SINGLE THING TO DO BUT giggle.
Take my sludge as it is
Years within years, things have been going quite steady for me. Until, let’s say I finally have this sludge again. It keeps coming as denial, because as it is in waste treatment, sludge is unwanted, yet it keeps being produced and so you have to treat this in order to get pure wastewater. I ain’t talking bitch about real sludge, if you get ma point here.
This sludge reminds me of...
intensity
Just done reading an article in new york times entitled Modern Love : What A Scale Can’t Measure. These lines attract me most.
And I wanted to test my own open-mindedness, to look beyond this man’s flesh, into his eyes, brain and heart. Isn’t that what I always hoped a man would do for me?
Eyes. They are my favorite part of body. Through eyes I can trully sense others untold...
November 2011
2 posts
HAPPY BIRTHDAY M♥M
Today is my mom’s birthday and I can’t even celebrate it with her. This is not first time actually. But mom only has one child, and it’s me. She meant world to me. Birthday might be just another day. But still, not being able to celebrate it with her makes me devastated. Mom, I wish you a happy birthday. You work hard, you deserve something greater than great. You are world to...
October 2011
19 posts
Brave Thinker
Vinod Khosla. A man who’s being dissident not only for environmentalist but also for capitalist. Willing to take risk, because not taking a risk itself is a risk. Since, the idea of Prius itself not truly “GREEN” -Prius is coal-powdered cars, which simply need higher cost than gasoline powdered cars- someone need to invent low-energy battery for Prius. Creating ion lithium is...
To be able to finish all those tasks much earlier before the deadline feel SWEET MOTHER OF GOD! Because I can enjoy watching HIMYM S7EPS7! NORETTA! Immediately without any guilty feeling of postponing anything! YEAAAH!!!!! Hell no procrastinating!!!!!!!
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Support from my dearest team member means so huge for me. Never thought I could have such a supportive team like this. A leader who’s just not leading me, but also developing my potential. A team which always encourage me to strive for excellence in my weakest point. This is more than I ever expected. Some people see this as cliche blabbers. Do I care? No, I got people who appreciate me and...
DÄREMELLAN
Another side of me trapped between denial and assurance. Between confusion and certainty.
If I can stand for myself, why I feel incomplete? But since I can manage most of things by myself, why do I need complement? Maybe I just need function not presence. What kind of person who judges other by function not presence? This mess called me I suppose.
Another side of me once more told me that...
thisclose to fart & dart
I WON’T REGRET. Your time is over. Once I fart, last thing you can do is enjoy my fumes. Thanks, but no thanks.
“Do I sound snob, if I say I’m good with no company? It’s not I love...”
“UNDER-RATEDDDDDD!!!!!!!!!!!!”
September 2011
5 posts
“Desperately need help to choose gifts.”